My Battle with imposter syndrome

Hello KGP Fam, and welcome back to another daily blog post!

Today’s post is going to be about something that I have struggled with a lot over the past year and half, and something that I know I am going to continue to battle in the months ahead as several new and BIG things are coming for KGP. Today we are going to talk about imposter syndrome.

 

Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon, impostorism, fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud". (Google)

 

When it comes to this business, I strive to be as transparent and honest as I can about who I am as a person—as Katie—behind the brand name of KGP. I never want to mislead a client, and I never want to give the impression that I am someone that I’m not. Therefore, as this business has grown and my abilities have matured, I’ve struggled with embracing my new professionalism and quality of product without feeling like a fraud. I’ve consistently had thoughts of “can I do this?”, “am I ready for this?”, and “why me?”.

 
 
Somewhat awkward pic taken by Jackson that I somewhat dig.

Somewhat awkward pic taken by Jackson that I somewhat dig.

 
 

I’ve found that oftentimes in life we are our own greatest enemy.

 

I’ve found that oftentimes in life we are our own greatest enemy. There isn’t anybody in a dark cloak with a pointy witches nose waiting for me to mess up so they can expose me as a fraud. That is a fear that I have created myself in my efforts to remain honest and open with my business. I need to put that fear to bed and remind myself with confidence of the truths that I know.

My truths:

  1. I have been a wedding photographer for exactly one year as of December 16th.

  2. I am new to this business, but that doesn’t make me any less of a professional.

  3. I LOVE what I do.

  4. I have been asked to travel to both Seattle, WA and The Florida Keys for weddings.

  5. That’s a BIG DEAL.

  6. I have lots of wonderful couples who WANT me as their wedding photographer next year and trust me to do an amazing job.

  7. I still get nervous and stressed out before every wedding.

  8. I feel alive and energized when I am shooting every wedding.

  9. I have invested into education to make myself a better photographer and will continue to do so through 2019.

  10. I am doing what God has called me to do.

  11. i am thankful every day that I get to do this.

 
 
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When I remember these truths that I know with confidence, I am able to fight against the imposter syndrome. I am able to remind myself that I am not a fake, I am the real deal. I am fighting every day to become better for my couples and myself and I don’t know of any imposters who would do that.

 

Have you ever struggled with imposter syndrome before? If so, make a list of truths that you know with confidence. Remind yourself of them whenever you’re experiencing doubts about you and your capabilities. Read them to yourself often and walk through this life with confidence.

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Much love!

Katie xx

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